Worst week of the year....HaPhAzaaaard Dreamzz...

It all started like that,had a tiff with some one so close to me.
Somewhere something broke down....or when you say that"Trust" is like a paper , when crumbled cannot be set back right is almost true,no it wasnt that someone broke my trust...Not at all.But I have my own apprehensions,and those apprehensions took a toll on me....each one of us must have at least loved some one/must have had a huge crush/must have been into a relationship...Obviously at the age of 23 our hormones must have danced in various forms including Salsa!!So with me...I would be telling a pure lie if I say I never ever had a crush in my life!!! for that matter anybody that says it....accept that he/she is the biggest player ;) ;)


So kinda I am low on this Friday morning,have no plans of the coming weekend...have an exam in suburbs of bangalore and have no one to escort me...Dunno how I will reach ...I will try I leave the rest upon God,I can see my hard work not paying off correctly....(mumma papa told me this morning God has bigger plans...mumma papa you are my living God...and I understand you have bigger plans for me...)


My best friend almost broke Up!! 4 years and all in vain.I am feeling bad,not because she broke up,but because i love her so much that it hurts me to see her hurt.After so many cases I heard I understand Boys are never ready to give any kind of committment,boys generally give all sorts of lame excuses- the girl is not adjusting/she has too much of ego//I am tired of explaining/I wont ever marry her/I am not the love-committment types/I need freedom and space....for all such boys I have just one thing-"Dude" GET A LIFE....a girl who gets frustrated with you ....irritates you...gets angry....cries...calls you....she is the one who loves you....and really loves you...a girl who lets you booze,gives you freedom/is not clingy...is open/smart/modern Does not really love you.!!This is a fact and try to accept it open heartedly.And all you guys will get just one this kind of a girl in your life....because every girl feels like this practically for just one or at the maximum two guys...so by all the permutations and combinations and the ratio of boys:girls in engineering colleges or elsewhere you will GET JUST ONE GIRL IN YOUR WHOLE LIFE WHO IS DYING FOR YOU...so dont let her go....and freedom and all you will only want till you are not mature...once you are done with everything....tried alll the adventures of life you will miss this same girl who cried for you and you did not give a shit....
I just wish things work out between you both.


I dont know whether I am an underdog or not...but some kind of aggression is rising up...I will channelize it to make my dreams come true.

Overall things are going on...because time doesnt reallly stop for anyone but I feel something somewhere is wrong....and disappointment is there...but i have learnt life is larger....and I need to expand my vision accordingly....


Yess I will Do it....and things will fall into place...When I can come out of a hell...I can definitely reach to the Heavens!!
for that matter,Love as welll.....


love-
mani.

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